What next?

Things changed. The cloud of uncertainty around my future plans has become denser. The one thing I hate in life is sitting idle. There was a time when opportunities were flowing in seamlessly one after the other. Those were the peak times of my career. No opportunity was ever wasted.

One fair morning I got a mail from my GM about the new team structure. I was at the pantry on a tea break, just then Narayan, lovingly called Naree!! ….Lols!!...came up to me and told me about the mail. I refused to believe what he said, neglecting it as his prank. Back at the desk I was shocked to see the mail. Till then I was reporting to Syam – such a cool guy, he was more like a friend than a manager. Helpful and knowledgeable. I enjoyed every minute working with him. He is an ideal manager; never puts stress on the team mates and his attitude towards work is amazing. He is good at prioritizing work and completes them on time. I have always looked at him with high admiration. I have seen and heard about a lot of managers who are arrogant, egoistic and unmindful of others feelings. Syam is an exception. These eulogies are from deep within my heart and please don’t take them as flattery – there are people who take such high praises with suspicion. These are from my experience and true to the very sense. I used to banter my friends working with snobbish, supercilious managers. Nobody wants to work with such managers and most of my friends envied my luck on this matter. I found it very difficult to accept the fact that I have to report to someone else now. I was torn to pieces and felt dejected, but kept telling myself not to lose hope and that things change for the good.

The new manager is Ravi. I don’t know much about him, but people have diverse opinion about him. Some say he is a cool chap and some have contradictory opinions about him. Iam not exposed to him enough to frame an opinion now – I had little or no interaction with him.

Syam asked me to “Grab this opportunity”! I don’t understand the opportunity I have here. As far as I understand, the only opportunity I have is to sit idle all the time, not having any work to do. I vegetate sitting jobless all the time. This is one of the least appreciated times in life and the one I never wanted to encounter, but destiny was a little too cruel on me. Told the new manager about the pending tasks, but he doesn’t seem to have paid any attention to it. He simply neglected them, neglected all my mails. I don’t understand why. How could managers be so unbothered and carefree? I never complained - yes,being stoical is the key.

There are innumerous things I could think of to kill time, but iam lazy and there is no real motivation. The only thing that keeps me alive is blogging. I wanted to develop an application to automate the quality process, but demoralized by the prospective new practices to be followed soon after the rollout of SAP across our unit. Sometimes I keep myself busy reading movie reviews and sometimes go through Infy Bulletin board. Now there is new platform for photographers – SLRBB, the place for people who have interest in photography to share their thoughts and snaps. It was in existence since a long time but made public recently. Thought I don’t have a photo to claim or any thoughts to share about photography I like to read all the posts. I don’t miss any.

What is the next best thing to do? Iam worried about it….no iam not really worried…iam….iam anxious!..I have high hopes about tomorrow and that keeps me going.